ready to be an artist again!

I went to ARTROPOLIS this weekend. I feel like that should be really huge and said in a DEEP VOICE (like a monster truck rally announcer's).

ARTROPOLIS!

It was pretty fun and the line to get the free Grolsch moved rather quickly. I always find that going to art fairs is inspirational, in that you see a lot of stuff that is not very impressive, and think, well, I could make artwork at this level, at least, and probably better, so I better get to it. Oh yeah, also seeing innovative good art is inspiring too. Mostly I get mad at myself for not "taking art seriously". Or something. I'm not sure. I like art, I love art, but I'm not obsessed and I am not "career driven" or "business like". It would be fun to be involved in the hustle and bustle of an art fair. Although, it is also really fun to just be in the middle of it, and not responsible for anything–just an enjoyer who goes to the after parties, who doesn't have to wake up early to check tickets and point out the restrooms to patrons. We got to do that a lot! The "art world" is kind of annoying, but I guess it's ok; it's better than most industries, but you know, art is supposed to be so pure and not like an industry, whatever, we all need to make a living. Do galleries actually even make money? I originally meant this to be positive!

I end up thinking, I could or should be living a life where I am involved in this world, but for some reason I'm not. ? Laziness? Fear? Inability? i think a lot is lacking social skills and general disdain for most of the people in it?

Anyway, I feel ready and it is about time I take on a project. A new zine or new artist's book. I kind of want it to be a bigger project than usual, so I have something substantial. I want to get some work into galleries/more stores. Also on the internet. I am going to not be self defeating. If only I had some more time/energy...well, I have Fridays off to work on my new projects. ALSO, I am part of the only piece of art on the walls that sold at the exquisite corpse show. So yeah, I need to create more for my own sanity and happiness and fulfillment. I already knew this.

I got my whole new set of Rapidographs in the mail today, w00t. Also, ordered some Holbein watercolors to replace my cheap ones. Expensive watercolors are a must for that "pigment power"! (we saw this painter on tv and he kept going on and on about "pigment power" and how you must buy nice paints!)