One pet peeve i have is when people don't completely tear off the inner sealed film thingy that comes inside certain food containers. Like in sour cream. It ends up just falling inside the sour cream and when the sour cream separates, liquid pools on top of the plastic. I really don't like how the leaving it on is kind of some sort of effort to preserve freshness, because it makes no sense whatsoever, and is just stupid. This also happens a lot with Pringles. Just tear it off!
Another thing bothering me today is my relationship. We hardly have any time together, for serious. Even though we live together, very little of it is quality time. Plus, I have been out of town/busy the past few weekends, and I miss having weekends together. Then I get sick and the past couple nights I just passed out right after work. Nicole acts like it is ridiculous that I want to spend time with my boyfriend. So what, I canceled going to Cedar Point on Friday because Mark has two fun shows going on, one of which he is nervous about, and I want to be there for it. She rubs it in my face via g-chat: "because mark has a show" as if I shouldn't ever consider him in my plans. Oh well.
I kind of miss the beginning of our relationship where everything was exciting. Will that ever come back?? It kind of makes me sad. It's not like things are bad, but I'm not all excited and anxious about it anymore, which is good and bad. I feel more ready to focus on other things, but the "spark" is gone. I feel more confident in us, but am I too comfortable? I don't want to have sex all the time anymore. I enjoy my alone time, now that it is more rare. WTF. Sometimes I feel a very deep love and thankfulness and then sometimes I feel frustrated. It makes me feel weird. I feel a drifting apart. Maybe we just need some good time together. It's not like I'm interested in anybody else in the least bit!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
GO TO HELL
NO, IT'S NOT "CRAZY" THAT THE BACHELORETTE PARTY YOU'VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT SINCE JANUARY IS FINALLY THIS WEEKEND. nor is it "CRAZY" that the Vegas trip you've been telling us all about for almost a whole year IS FINALLY NEXT MONTH ("can you believe it???"), ESPECIALLY since I planned a trip to vegas and actually went in one week during the time you were talking about what you would maybe wear nonstop ("I feel like I want to wear like sequins, since I'm going to Vegas, isn't that crazy?").
Also, asking, "Are you getting a salad?" when I already have a salad bowl in my hand and am filling it with lettuce…REALLY?!? I am filled with so much contempt it is making my body want to curl up into a fireball and explode myself in your cubicle.
OH, ALSO YOU LOST MAYBE 10 POUNDS–YOU DON'T NEED A WHOLE NEW WARDROBE JUST BECAUSE YOUR PANTS NO LONGER GIVE YOU A MUFFIN TOP.
Ugh, I feel better now?
Also, asking, "Are you getting a salad?" when I already have a salad bowl in my hand and am filling it with lettuce…REALLY?!? I am filled with so much contempt it is making my body want to curl up into a fireball and explode myself in your cubicle.
OH, ALSO YOU LOST MAYBE 10 POUNDS–YOU DON'T NEED A WHOLE NEW WARDROBE JUST BECAUSE YOUR PANTS NO LONGER GIVE YOU A MUFFIN TOP.
Ugh, I feel better now?
Monday, May 4, 2009
ready to be an artist again!
I went to ARTROPOLIS this weekend. I feel like that should be really huge and said in a DEEP VOICE (like a monster truck rally announcer's).
ARTROPOLIS!
It was pretty fun and the line to get the free Grolsch moved rather quickly. I always find that going to art fairs is inspirational, in that you see a lot of stuff that is not very impressive, and think, well, I could make artwork at this level, at least, and probably better, so I better get to it. Oh yeah, also seeing innovative good art is inspiring too. Mostly I get mad at myself for not "taking art seriously". Or something. I'm not sure. I like art, I love art, but I'm not obsessed and I am not "career driven" or "business like". It would be fun to be involved in the hustle and bustle of an art fair. Although, it is also really fun to just be in the middle of it, and not responsible for anything–just an enjoyer who goes to the after parties, who doesn't have to wake up early to check tickets and point out the restrooms to patrons. We got to do that a lot! The "art world" is kind of annoying, but I guess it's ok; it's better than most industries, but you know, art is supposed to be so pure and not like an industry, whatever, we all need to make a living. Do galleries actually even make money? I originally meant this to be positive!
I end up thinking, I could or should be living a life where I am involved in this world, but for some reason I'm not. ? Laziness? Fear? Inability? i think a lot is lacking social skills and general disdain for most of the people in it?
Anyway, I feel ready and it is about time I take on a project. A new zine or new artist's book. I kind of want it to be a bigger project than usual, so I have something substantial. I want to get some work into galleries/more stores. Also on the internet. I am going to not be self defeating. If only I had some more time/energy...well, I have Fridays off to work on my new projects. ALSO, I am part of the only piece of art on the walls that sold at the exquisite corpse show. So yeah, I need to create more for my own sanity and happiness and fulfillment. I already knew this.
I got my whole new set of Rapidographs in the mail today, w00t. Also, ordered some Holbein watercolors to replace my cheap ones. Expensive watercolors are a must for that "pigment power"! (we saw this painter on tv and he kept going on and on about "pigment power" and how you must buy nice paints!)
ARTROPOLIS!
It was pretty fun and the line to get the free Grolsch moved rather quickly. I always find that going to art fairs is inspirational, in that you see a lot of stuff that is not very impressive, and think, well, I could make artwork at this level, at least, and probably better, so I better get to it. Oh yeah, also seeing innovative good art is inspiring too. Mostly I get mad at myself for not "taking art seriously". Or something. I'm not sure. I like art, I love art, but I'm not obsessed and I am not "career driven" or "business like". It would be fun to be involved in the hustle and bustle of an art fair. Although, it is also really fun to just be in the middle of it, and not responsible for anything–just an enjoyer who goes to the after parties, who doesn't have to wake up early to check tickets and point out the restrooms to patrons. We got to do that a lot! The "art world" is kind of annoying, but I guess it's ok; it's better than most industries, but you know, art is supposed to be so pure and not like an industry, whatever, we all need to make a living. Do galleries actually even make money? I originally meant this to be positive!
I end up thinking, I could or should be living a life where I am involved in this world, but for some reason I'm not. ? Laziness? Fear? Inability? i think a lot is lacking social skills and general disdain for most of the people in it?
Anyway, I feel ready and it is about time I take on a project. A new zine or new artist's book. I kind of want it to be a bigger project than usual, so I have something substantial. I want to get some work into galleries/more stores. Also on the internet. I am going to not be self defeating. If only I had some more time/energy...well, I have Fridays off to work on my new projects. ALSO, I am part of the only piece of art on the walls that sold at the exquisite corpse show. So yeah, I need to create more for my own sanity and happiness and fulfillment. I already knew this.
I got my whole new set of Rapidographs in the mail today, w00t. Also, ordered some Holbein watercolors to replace my cheap ones. Expensive watercolors are a must for that "pigment power"! (we saw this painter on tv and he kept going on and on about "pigment power" and how you must buy nice paints!)
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